Wednesday, October 22, 2008

One Week.

For one week do you think you could keep your emotions to yourself? If someone asks you how you are doing, you always answer with something positive yet not too positive?

I find myself saying "I'm fine" a lot even if I'm good or not so good.

And let me tel you this.... I can be a completely irrational person inside. Well on the outside too I guess, but on the inside for sure. I keep things to myself, then I get made when people don't ask? Or when people don't say enough if I by chance I do tell them something about how I'm feeling. I'm completely irrational in thinking that people will respond to things the way I would. I mean come on, people can't be that good. :P j/j Really though, I don't know how to stop putting expectations on people. Does that ever get better? Does it get worse? It's something I've always dealt with... hold on let me think.

Ok maybe I answered my own question. I think it has gotten better. I've been trying not to expect so much from others in the past years. Really, who gets hurt when YOU put expectations on OTHERS? Especially high ones. I have high expectations, people. I try to keep them in check, though. So that's good.

What was my point to this? Hmm... I lost it, but I just came up with another. Maybe I should have higher expectations for myself. I place them on others, why not more on me? I'm going to try. Maybe this week will be my week of try outs. It's also convenient that tomorrow is Hump Day and the week is coming to an end. :P

In other news:

-Had another wonderful weekend with Aaron. I've always saw his work ethic, but it's really becoming very evident as it now affects my life. And I have to say, I'm really proud of him. He works really hard to get ahead. It makes me feel guilty for a few reasons that I'm not going to get into right now. I really like being in his realm, I guess you could say. I feel like he's extended himself in many different directions and with different people, so to be inside it all is nice. It's hard to expand on that idea because I just came up with it. (Work it, Bridget!)

-My Mom made me her version of a yarn bell. Here are some pictures:

I'm using it tonight as I work on Aarons blanket. It's really nice!! I have to start winding my yarn, I think. For anyone who might read this, do you wind your yarn? If so, how or with what? I like the design she did.haha It's fun. A meadow sky scene on the top, and an underwater scene on the bottom. Very creative!

Other news.... other news... Oh, I got an 86 on my Psych of the Exceptional Learner midterm. I was nervous for it, but it turned out easier than I thought. So that's good! I think I got the same score on my Visual Basic midterm, too. It was right around 86.

Well I guess I should end this and go to sleep. I was so tired earlier today, but now thinking about going to sleep without Aaron next to me is kind of sad! I hope I'm not too into this man, but I do love him.haha So get off my back. :)

Have a great Wednesday!

1 comment:

Stitch-n-Snitch said...

Sometimes I feel like I have a split personality with the thoughts and feelins I have swirling around in my head and the image I try to portray to the outside world. My DH calls it "Thinking Too Much Syndrome," but I think that's an oversimplification.

Speaking of your yarn question, I like to wind my yarn into cakes. I find the motion soothing, and it also lets me "preview" the yarn before I knit with it. I hate it when I'm knitting along and come to a knot or tangle in the ball--ugh!