I'm sorry for the rain!

I'm sorry it's been raining all the time the past week.

It's my fault.

You see last Tuesday I bought a new watering can.

And every day since I bought that watering can, it's rained. Every single day.

I don't know how long it will go for. Maybe I'll break the watering can. Or send it to places that need rain.

Or send it to Milli Vanilli.



It's just SO bad!

The Green Blanket

So here is my blanket I'm making for my cousin William and his soon to be wife Christina. I don't know much about her except she is a rich dentist. A fact I hear often from my Aunt(Williams mother) She never mentions the fact that this is his second marriage. He went out on his first date with Christina the day his ex wife moved out. Oh and she is exactly like his ex. EXACTLY! Same personality, body type, she just has dark hair.haha Everything on their registry is too expensive for me, but I like making things better. She's a rich dentist, she can buy her own espresso machine. Because I KNOW William doesn't drink it.haha
The above picture is with the flash, it's more color correct than the bottom pictures. But you can see the detail better in the bottom. I really love how it's turning out. My hands, however, are not. They are killing me today. Got the brace on though. Hi, I just turned 80. I have bad hands and arthritis.haha

What do you think? I'm making another one simliar to this but with a different pattern. It's more modern than flowers. It's for my great friend Chris and his soon to be wife. He just got back from Iraq and while he was over there I told him I'd make them a blanket! Except I told him it would be pink. If these didn't take so long I'd make him a gag blanket in hot pink and hearts.haha

That's it. Time to go read and eat some pizza.

Wal Mart

As many of you probably know, Wal Mart is the best store in my life। The only draw back of the Wal Mart closest to me are the always long and far too few lines। The few that are open are backed up into the ladies department and everyone is reading a magazine or on their phone.

Today I would have gone to the self check-out line but I had a lot of heavy items I had no desire to pick up. Plus, the last time I brought cat/dog food to a self check-out line it got caught on a corner and all 50 pounds scattered across the floor. It was the last bag of this particular food, too. Weber was NOT happy when I got home.

So today. I get into line and there is only ONE lady in front of me. Only ONE! It was a dream come true because other lines were becoming backed up. I soon realize that my good fortune is actually nothing of the sort. This one woman had three carts FULL of stuff. I didn't see the ones in front of her. For every item in her cartS she had COUPONS.

She couldn't just put everything on the belt and then hand in the coupons... no she had to select a coupon and search in all three carts for the item she wants discounted. She searched two carts and her young son(maybe about 6 or 7) searched another one. She had coupons for everything. I couldn't believe it.

The cashier went to total it all up but then there was a problem. The lady had too many coupons. So of course she's throwing up a stink, she was actually pretty rude to the cashier. The manager or whomever came over and went through this whole long process so this lady could get her discounts. He goes through it all and when he's done she doesn't even say thank you when he says "OK, there you go." Not a word. She just stood there.

THEN she has 6 Resolve carpet cleaner bottles in her last cart. She tells the cashier that she wants to ring each Resolve bottle seperately so she can get the rebates for them. Guess what... she was buying them each by credit card. Just as she was done telling the cashier this another cashier comes up and says she's here to take over. The other cashier gets her stuff and says "Take care" and smiles to the lady in front of me and the lady stands there with her coupons fisted in her hand which is on her him and says "MM hmmm" like she couldn't be bothered. She was really rude.
The next cashier comes up and the lady is all talkative and smiles. I have my own theories about that, but I'm not blogging them.She gets all of her Resolves rung up and all 6 of her receipts for her rebates and was like "HAVE A GREAT DAY!" to the new cashier.

I was annoyed.
Very annoyed.

Did I mention the lady behind me was on her phone trying to get her significant other to talk dirty to her?
Words for the wise: Even though you are whispering, I can still hear you because you are RIGHT behind me.

Is there a sign on my back?

Granted, I haven't had a boyfriend since last January.
Granted, I haven't had 'relations' since last May.

But I'll be damned if I let someone offer to fly me to where they are so that we can have sex.

Three guys in the past 4 months have offered to fly me to where they are under no pretenses. They want to have sex. Trust me, I've gotten the explicit text messages and IMs.

Do I really seem like that kind of girl? Even with the Granted items above, I like to think I'm better than that. Did I mention these three guys are very good friends of mine? They are spread out across the country in various stages of deployment.... but I can't do that.

This last one has me more upset. I have had a big crush on this guy for over a year. It started at the end of my last relationship. His home is about 2 hours from mine but he doesn't live 'home'. He's stationed in Tennessee. He was home, however, a few weeks ago. Did he call or want to hang out? Negatory. What about when we were both in the same city for a big event. His text messages were working but not his phone? How does that work? We had made plans to find time to meet up. I hadn't seen him since July. Buuut when the time came he was in a very loud bar and couldn't come out to find me? I was actually in front of that very loud bar waiting for him to tell me where he was. But he didn't. So what am I to think really? After those instances and more smaller instances, what am I to think other than I am a friend of convenience. I am a friend when he needs one. I am a friend to send him letters in Ranger school. He even said besides his parents I was the only one to send him anything. Because I was the only one to ask him what his address is down there? Probably.

I will not be some ones friend of convenience. Which also means I will not be someones personal rag doll because that some one is horny.



I'd really like to think I am better than that.





And guess what.





I am.






You just have no idea how hard it is to be "better than that". Especially when for over a year you've thought about the very thing you are saying no to.




It's not easy being a girl with morals.

Ok, you can honk at me!

Short entry:

I was on my way home from school today waiting at the light to turn onto 84. The light JUST turned green and someone honked next to me. My first thought was to the car in front of the obnoxious honker, that poor guy didn't even have time to press on the gas. So I look over to the car that honked to give my mean glare when I see 4 men in Army uniforms. They were not looking mean and in a hurry, in fact two (closest to the windows) were looking at me smiling. When I wiped the dirty look off my face and saw the one in the passenger seat wave I smiled and drove on my merry way.

This was a nice pick me up for the day, even though nothing would come of a random honker. It was great all the same because they saw me from my bad side. The one with the wrinkle.

Exploring....

Just a heads up... Leave nasty or rude comments to yourself please. I'd gladly read thoughtful opinions though. And I'm not going to get into my opinion of science because that is a whole other issue I have.

I was outside this afternoon reading but I had my notebook with me just in case something struck me and boy was I struck. Here is what I was thinking:

I can't say for certain what's out there and what started us(but I'll have a better idea as I explore my thoughts.)
Creation? Evolution? Creatolution?
I believe in something larger than us. A higher power. God.
That belief alone has helped me more than any science book has.
Some, or many, would call me stupid for even questioning science. But what the hell do they know? What the hell do I know?
They call them "theories" for a reason, right?
How can we ever prove such a thing like where LIFE started?
I look back at my limited knowledge of history and the world and see less evolution but more progression.
We have progressed an incredible amount in science and technology.
We have progressed an incredible amount in human rights.
But has a telephone ever evolved into a car?
Or has a monkey ever evolved into anything that's not monkey like?
*Although my nice sweet baby kitten who fell asleep in the palm of my hand has evolved into a ferocious beast.*

Main Entry: evo·lu·tion Listen to the pronunciation of evolution
Pronunciation:
..ˌe-və-ˈlü-shən, ˌē-və-..
Function:
noun
Etymology:
Latin evolution-, evolutio unrolling, from evolvere
Date:
1622

1: one of a set of prescribed movements2 a: a process of change in a certain direction : unfolding b: the action or an instance of forming and giving something off : emission c (1): a process of continuous change from a lower, simpler, or worse to a higher, more complex, or better state : growth (2): a process of gradual and relatively peaceful social, political, and economic advance d: something evolved3: the process of working out or developing4 a: the historical development of a biological group (as a race or species) : phylogeny b: a theory that the various types of animals and plants have their origin in other preexisting types and that the distinguishable differences are due to modifications in successive generations; also : the process described by this theory5: the extraction of a mathematical root6: a process in which the whole universe is a progression of interrelated phenomena

Main Entry: 2pro·gress Listen to the pronunciation of 2progress

Pronunciation:
..prə-ˈgres..
Function:
intransitive verb
Date:
1539

1 : to move forward : proceed 2 : to develop to a higher, better, or more advanced stage


The odds of a baby fully developing from fertilization to embryo to brand new baby are very small. There is so much that can go wrong in such a complex process. If an embryo(designed to grow into a person), in a safe womb(designed to hold this embryo and nurture it and provide it with what it needs to become a baby) has a small chance of surviving how on "earth" did we evolve from a little squiggle in some body of water in a continually volatile environment? Was each moment in time, each temperature change, each storm, each ANYTHING, exactly what that little squiggle needed to evolve into what made me today?
Was life a little zygote all those "millions of years ago" that was in the perfect environment for each stage to develop into what life is today?
Is Earth our womb?
Where we each have a certain percentage of making it out? Being born after we die? Are we all little zygotes fighting that percentage of "life miscariages" to hopefully be born into whatever comes after death?

Will what we believe in REALLY make a difference in the after instead of the now?